Time to myself

In a relationship those people that ask for time to themselves don't want to be together or atleast that's the way I see it.  Why think over all of the reasons you weren't together at this junction just choose not to be together the people that have to recharge are planning to end up in the same mess there just taking a breather all bullshit if you ask me

 

26 in three days

I'll be 26 in a few days and I have been trying to figure out if my life is lined up too be were it is going to be for the next few years of my life.  I enjoy the business I am in but with the recession and the fact that every other state is doing a tax incentive I have only worked on one film this year and it doesn't look like I'm going to work to many more this year.  My agent for roles sucks and I don't work enough at being an actor to make my self marketable.  I have a girlfriend who hates herself on a daily basis and I don't do well on making her feel better because I look at a low self esteem and self doubt as low qualities and decide not to cater to them.  I have a feeling I invest in peoples lives just to cash out once they have a trait I can't mesh with.  I have a beautiful little boy that I hope looks up to me the way I never did to my father.  I hope I'm not fucking up his life.  I wish I looked at everyone in my life with at least half of the love I look at my son.  I've always envisioned myself stopping bullets and saving lives never looking down at people and not holding stake in the human condition its very disheartening and the worst thing about it is I'm beginning to nit pick myself like I do others 

Losing my faith in the human condition

I'm trying to figure out what exactly is the relationship for people.  What do they do for each other.  I just don't understand it.  Do parents need there children more than there children need them or is the relationship animalistic all together and as soon as they can "hunt" they should be allowed to fend for themselves.  In dating relationships is there more than the comfort of a warm body at night.   I just feel like I'm losing faith in people it sucks

Things are Looking up

With a new job starting new fuel has been given to me to work to be where I would like to be.  I need to have as much determination as my son has in wanting to get things done.  Today is a new day and I want to take it all in stride I am looking forward for the days to come.

P90Xinterview

Interview with Teambeach body for using P90X

Hollywood South

Over the past few years Shreveport, LA has been dubbed as hollywood south.  Tons of movies are filmed here a year and I have had the  opportunity of working on most of them.  Last year actually was my best year working on films.  I hope this year can be a repeat of that success but it's starting out at a turtles pace my first film of 2009 will start shooting Feb 17th  

Cool Dogs

I got a call last night I'm going back to work that is an awesome feeling I'm very excited about it.

Something New

Something New has to happen soon the anticipation of nothing sucks.  I hope something positive happens in the weeks to come.  I want to do so many things but can't find the flow that I need something new really has to happen soon I think I'm starting to go fucking nuts

Luke's P90X interview

Luke's P90X interview

Slumdog Millionaire

One of the best films I have seen in a long while.  It served as a wonderful way to tell a story.  To Americanize it it showed a person who's been through every hard time imaginable and still manages to make it.  If you have a chance to see this film please do it's amazing.

God vs. Science

I had the chance last night to attend the last premiere of a short film by Cristal Clear Productions titled God vs. Science it was very thought provoking.  It reminded me of times where I actually use to think about things before acting on them.  Also it reminded me about conviction and believing in something and fighting for it.  After the show you got a glimpse of the film makers decision to do such a controversial peace of film and a short glimpse into the idea of films in Hollywood South.  The extra training as an actor while making money and connections being an extra is the lesson of the day.  Even the agent who was present said her idea of having an agency was having a safe place for actors to go and be represented fairly.  It's funny maybe I will blame it on films but I thought agents were suppose to be sharks.  No one wants Jerry Maguire everyone wants the other guy because he doesn't back down.  There were two highlights of the evening one is that a guy recognized Kent and I from our capture the flag short another and by far the larger one is that Dano plugged New Born so it's as if people are starting to really hear the name in a small way hopefully that will grow stealing a stupid analogy the people has been dropped now watch the ripples

Peace